I this post ( Should sexual attraction cause suffering? ) I wondered about a feeling I have periodically. But just like that, the feeling is gone. Because of the way that it comes and goes, I have to doubt that it is really sexual attraction. It’s strange. It seems that whatever the feeling is, it seems to be more closely tied to a need for protection or comfort that to actual sexual attraction.
Recently I have been reading a blog My Hetero Gay Life. The author of the blog seems to be gay. I have pondered whether he is bisexual, but the way he describes his feelings, I can’t help but wonder whether he might be right. I must admit I don’t think that there is enough room in the heterosexual / homosexual black and white way of thinking to allow for the rainbow of people and their feelings. I believe that the Kinsey Scale is a more workable framework, but even it is too limiting. Still, the things he describes, especially in the post Why Not Bi? just sound like someone either in the Kinsey 5 or Kinsey 6 range.
Visualizations about having sex with a man just don’t happen to me. In my mind (and dreams) it is always a woman. So what is this feeling that comes over me every so often? I wish I knew.
